Lately I've been feeling a bit unlike "me". I realize that I'm so wrapped up in being a mom that there is nothing else in my life. I introduced myself to Cody's mom's friend the other day as "Cody's mom". Later I was thinking how odd that was. I actually said "Cody's Mom" like that was my name. Is that who I am? I remember when Mike and I were first married someone in his family introduced me as "Mike's wife" and I was so offended. I was saying in my head "what, I don't have a name, I'm just Mike's wife?". It's an interesting battle I've got in my own head. Is being a mom who I am or is it taking over who I am? Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love being a mom, but there are times when I feel like I'm losing my identity as a person. I suppose since I stay home with my kids and don't have a job (yes being a mom is a huge job...that's a whole other blog though) I feel even more this way. I don't have activities that I do without my kids...ever! I don't remember the last time I did something without them, other than maybe a quick run to the grocery store. So, that brings up the question...is being a mom my identity or is it taking over my identity? I honestly can't answer that right now. Some days I love it and I'm happy that I can introduce myself as "so and so's mom". Other days I feel like I'm completely drowning in it all and that I'll never be me again.
Today I sat and watched Natalie grin up at her big brother as he made silly sounds at her. She got pretty close to a giggle a couple times. Watching things like that is so heartwarming for me and makes me ok with just being mom.
You are not "just a mom!!" You are super woman, extraordinaire!!! I am not a mom yet, so take this with a grain of salt: I think being a mom is definitely part of who are you, but it's not all of who you are. You are also a wife and crafter, among other things. Hang in there!! And maybe try to find some time, even for an hour once a week, where you can nurture some other "side" of you!
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